I have been dying to write a blog for such a long time. As mentioned previously, I have so many topics to cover...there is just not enough time in the day. I'm so incredibly busy learning a ton of music for various things that I don't have time for sitting and musing much.
Well actually, that's not entirely true. I muse a lot at work because I basically do nothing there. It's kind of sweet actually. I mean, it's nice to get paid to sit around, but when I think about all the stuff that I really should be doing, it gets very frustrating to know that I'm sort of wasting my time at this damn job just because I need to make some cash.
Let me tell you a little something about working with the general public though - people smell. And they smell bad. I'm a receptionist and when people come up to my desk, I can notice right away when they are stinky. I don't know how many times I have had to bite my tongue so I don't blurt out "Did you take a bath in cigarette butts before coming here?" The smell of stale cigarettes is so incredibly disgusting. Then there's B.O., must, dust, mothballs, old-apartment-smell...the list goes on and on.
I'm not trying to be mean...this is a simple observation...sorry if I offended those who are prone to smelling bad. It happens...I understand.
Now for some exciting news - I'm going to Africa this summer...TWICE!!
I'm going to Uganda for 3 weeks with my mom, my sis, and our friend who is from Uganda. Her brother is getting married and she invited us along. It'll be really great to go there with someone who is from there and has family and friends there - much easier to get around and see things etc. I do want to spend some time on my own, though, just exploring and taking in things all by myself - have an adventure!
Then, a week after I get back from Uganda, I'm off to South Africa for a month to plant trees and do presentations on AIDS awareness. I'm pretty stoked about this, seeing as it ties in to my life philosophy to make the world a better place. But I have to admit, I'm really nervous about it because I have no idea what to expect. The other thing is that I'm absolutely terrified that this trip will fall through like my India trip fell through...and then I will have to consider myself one big failure at getting by butt out of Canada to opportunistic destinations on the other side of the world.
I do have to fundraise a nice chunk of change for this trip, though, so if anyone is willing to help me out and give me a donation, let me know via posting to this blog and I'll get you more details on how to go about doing that. Thanks in advance :)
What else? Well, I'm single. Not entirely freshly single though...it's been 4 months since my relationship ended with what I thought was a great guy. That illusion ended when Mr.Not-So-Wonderful came back from India engaged to a girl he'd known for a total of about 72 hours. This happened 3 days before my ex was due to come home to his ever-faithful and dutiful girlfriend (aka me). So he held off the family pressure for 5 weeks and caved at the last minute. Well if he agreed to an arranged marriage with a girl he doesn't know and who hardly speaks English, she's got to be something special - by that, I mean she's probably a looker with a nice rack.
I have to admit that I'm basically over this. I mean, it was really sad when it happened, especially because I found out from someone else, my ex being way too much of a coward to do the right thing and tell me to my face. But fortunately I have a logical pattern of thought that pulled myself together and said - Forget about this douchebag, gather yourself, stay strong because it's his loss and he knows it (and he does).
I remain optimistic that there are still good men out there who have the ability to be loyal and have the strength to say what needs to be said, when it needs to be said. It's a big world out there after all.
Also - nothing like watching the first 4 seasons of The Office post-breakup to really get you laughing again. That got me through the first bad weeks.
So to anyone going through the extremely unfortunate circumstance of heart-break, just know that there are other people who have gone through some ridiculous blows to the ego and made it through to the other side more-or-less unscathed. And actually, I have met some really great guys in the last little while - guys who are laid-back, whose company I enjoy, and who are smart, polite, and extremely personable.
Okay that's all for now.
Make sure you get your taxes done - only a few weeks til the end of April :)
Peace.
